pleasently-insane

The pain hurts like a beating downpour of hail I can't control it I'm like a ticking time bomb I wish I could stop it but I can't So I just go about my day Smiling to hide it all Don't want anyone to know But sometimes I can't hide it the pains so strong I just learned how to cry again Maybe that will keep the pain away Gods putting me through this for a reason but I cant seem to find that reason Someday I might be happy again Maybe not because right now it feels like it will last a lifetime But I'll try and get through on my own

Tears running down her eyes She doesn't know what to do So she takes a razor blade She cuts herself Blood starts pouring down her arm She needs stitches But stitches wont help whats already been done She was sexually abused in her past She is still haunted by it today Pain that kills her inside Pain from everything and everyone thats ever hurt her Shes been hurt too many times She just expects to get hurt Even by the people she loves Somedays she cuts deeper Those days are days where she feels rejected Days where she feels alone in the world Somedays she feels like killing herself Shes attempted suicide before Usually nob